Old habits die hard
I can't sleep tonight....I'm exhausted and sleepy but every time I try to shut down my mind goes crazy.
When it comes to men I simply go for the unattainable....kinda hoping it will workout but the reality is....I know it never will.
Not that they're out of my league bit I should avoid them at all cost. Their track record alone should make me stay clear.
But here I am flirting it up with another attainable. It's a horrible cycle which makes me question my mental state.
Why do I do this?
What am I afraid of?
Don't I deserve more? I can answer that.....Fuck yeah I do but I stay on this horrible path.
It's not my fetishes...even there I'm leery.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
35 going on 16....simply not cute. I'm stuck and I simply want off this ride.
When it comes to men I simply go for the unattainable....kinda hoping it will workout but the reality is....I know it never will.
Not that they're out of my league bit I should avoid them at all cost. Their track record alone should make me stay clear.
But here I am flirting it up with another attainable. It's a horrible cycle which makes me question my mental state.
Why do I do this?
What am I afraid of?
Don't I deserve more? I can answer that.....Fuck yeah I do but I stay on this horrible path.
It's not my fetishes...even there I'm leery.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
35 going on 16....simply not cute. I'm stuck and I simply want off this ride.
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