20 days down and a lifetime to go
Sometimes I wonder who I am. I wonder who this woman really is? On 11/18/08 I had Gastric Bypass, it wasn't an easy decision nor was it quick it was 5-6 years in the making. But its one of the best decisions I made for me and my health. In the last 20 days I've lost 20 lbs....so a pound a day. Part of me needs to hold on to that fat girl because she's been with me for so long. But another part of me knows I need to let her go and just be. But who and what will i be? My mom fears a slut with bad fashion sense. I told her I went through my slut phase so she doesn't have to worry about that. My sister thinks I will buy more clothes than i can actually wear....I think that's closer to what I think but I like living away from mom so rent comes first. My brother is just wondering how can he rag on me now the weight is dropping off. I hope this helps me....no DRIVES me to do the things I've always wanted to do, try the things that frighten me, either conquer and succee...