Just Tammy

I'mhappy to say the blues have seem to disappear. I think its because I've increased my calorie intake. My last flash of the blues happened during Girls Night. I was just not happy, Mari bought me a kickass scarf to make me feel better but I couldnt shake the feeling. Then the following week nothing and its been like that for weeks now. I'm loving it! I signed up for Eharmony! I'm such an idiot. I broke one of my own dating rule....never date before V-Day. But guys on E don't want a BBW. They want skinny minny and that's cool. I'm just not that girl. Next month I'll figure something out. My best Friend is going through a break up and i feel bad. I think the guy is nice at times but he's not one for emotions. And for a fiery Latina that's not going to work. I just wish they work it out they're good together. But I'm trying to do more. I've found a group that understands my Twilight craze!! LOL I can't think about Twilight all day a...

I don’t know what’s going on with me lately. Love songs are making me weepy, I get extremely lonely when normally I’m ok with my alone times. I’ve been thinking about Rob way too much lately. I think knowing we have NO contact is just odd too me. He removed me as a Netflix friend so I guess it was time to break that tie. But I don’t think that bothers me too much. Part of me is happy I wont receive that phone call or go to dinner and we end up in bed. I’m happy I don’t have that pressure but another part of me feels like I was left alone to find my way home but where is home exactly? I’m trying not to get blue but its getting worst and worst. I even tried to hang with Jason but he’s only going to want sex. I need something more….I just need to be held. I love sex and all but for some reason it goes deeper than that. Its scary because I feel like I’m falling into an abyss and wonder if I will survive. I need to reschedule my sessions with Dr. Susan, she really did help me because I was ...