Just Tammy

I wish I was loved. Just be myself & loved. But I know I'm going to grow old & die alone. No kids or husband to mourn me.

And I liked it. I know it's wrong and he'll never be mines. This saddens me. As usual I will be left alone...

I'mhappy to say the blues have seem to disappear. I think its because I've increased my calorie intake. My last flash of the blues happened during Girls Night. I was just not happy, Mari bought me a kickass scarf to make me feel better but I couldnt shake the feeling. Then the following week nothing and its been like that for weeks now. I'm loving it! I signed up for Eharmony! I'm such an idiot. I broke one of my own dating rule....never date before V-Day. But guys on E don't want a BBW. They want skinny minny and that's cool. I'm just not that girl. Next month I'll figure something out. My best Friend is going through a break up and i feel bad. I think the guy is nice at times but he's not one for emotions. And for a fiery Latina that's not going to work. I just wish they work it out they're good together. But I'm trying to do more. I've found a group that understands my Twilight craze!! LOL I can't think about Twilight all day a...