Just Tammy

Michael Jackson: The King of Pop 1958-2009 Today I'm at a lost. Even though I've heard it a million times but to hear Micheal Jackson passed away still boggles my mind. Yeah he was my first celebrity crush but his music....his music was amazing. I know many, MANY try to duplicate him but he was the originator, the fucking creator of Pop music. For years I wished his personal issues would go away so he could put out a good record. I wished and Quincey Jones would rejoin forces and make musical magic. Its the magic that's missing from music today. I wanted....no I needed so just pure and vibrant. But that never came to be. I knew I wouldnt be able to see his concerts he was planning in London but if I had the time and money I would have gone! Its so sad that someone so full of musical genius is no longer with us. I never knew my heart could hurt for someone I didn't know. I never lost someone who's talent was apart of the soundtrack of my life. Some songs I could hea...

I think I have a hangover. I went to see Paul Doucette with Cuckie last night @ the Hotel Cafe and had a great time. I didnt stay long to talk to him but it was great to see him play and sing. He puts on a great show and I plan to attend more of his shows in the future. When i got home the roomie was drinking wine and I had a glass with her. Now I have a headache. Damn Reisling!! Love that stuff.

I hate PMS....I just feel a little out of sorts today. I feel like I've extended my creative juices and was left with a bitter lemons and no lemonade. Say what I mean and mean what I say but I can't follow that philoshy. I'm just me. Spazz o'matic. I just need to remember Hawaii in 31 days. This time next month I will be packing my bags and ready to hope on a plane to Oahu, where I will drink so much rum I will forget my name, I will kiss cute unavailable me, and eat real Hawaiian food. I will take so many pictures my camera battery will surely die out on me. I will be free and not give a damn about anything but relaxation. Who knew I needed a vacation?! Wow I feel better just knowing in 31 days I will be in Hawaii....good times!

My Family is an odd bunch. My nephew is in town and he's staying with my dad during the week and weekend at my mom's house. Why they treat him like he's 12 is beyond me he's freakin' 19!! LOL Anyway, whenever I see my dad he finds something to lecture me about....but I realize its not so much a lecture its just his way of making sure he's apart of my life. He's not telling me I'm doing something wrong more like lets review all avenues. I guess I really am a Daddy's girl at heart. Its strange my step niece and I.....I think we might actually be friends! So far we have music and tattoos in common. I think its a great bridge. Who knew if you open your eyes what you find in front of you. I'm just happy they're around, the whole crazy lot....and I havent even started on my momma side....well some of them i can do without.

I've been slowly getting back into girl mode. I've bought 2 cute dresses for summer already but I know I need more! This is where one of my favorite stores come into play. Every plus size girl should have an account at Torrid.com or have a diva card. Torrid isn't just for the High school girls, they have some great items that will fit perfectly into an office wardrobe but more on that later. As I was doing my search for dresses I came across 2 dresses I must have this summer. First I found this long black dress crocheted dress that I feel is just sexy. I can dress it up with sexy strappy sandles or even dress flip flops. I can see myself wearing on a date or just dinner with the girls (hey even on girls night out sexiness is still required. I.E. Carrie, Samantha, Charolette, and Miranda). This little gem is only $ 58.00 , great deal! Oh this multi-color green dress screams relaxation! Yes you can dress it uo but not too much. This is definately a day dress but still sexy!...

Its been a while since I've posted a blog for my self. I've been so involved with catching the 100Monkey shows and TS that I forgot about me. But I'm happy with all that its not like I regret not blogging about myself....I realize the world does not revolve around me. Now the Monkeys are kicking off their summer tour on the east coast I will working on new project for TS. Sometimes I can't believe the ladies from TS. They make me laugh as well as make me cry (but all in a good way!). Sometimes its boggles my mind how just a year ago just thinking about going to a club and socializing would freak me out. Now I'm looking forward to meeting new people. As I lose weight the shy girl slowly leaves. I know I'm quiet by nature so that will never change but making that connection is becoming easier....well a little easier but still hard. I dont feel like a failure as much as I did before. Today my nephew arrives and I've really excited. I haven't seen him in abo...

Last night at the 24K Lounge I caught another 100Monkey & Friends show. First we had Mikey and Josh. Oh Josh(white shirt)....so yummy its just not right. He's in that I'm a starving artist phase and that's hella sexy. I call him myfavorite future ex-husband. He's just so adorable and very talented guy, he kinda looks like Nick Lache but more real and NOT plastic. But he prefers blonde who are at least a size 6 (I'm neither but I still adore him!). His brother Mikey (plaid shirt) is really talented with he bluesy voice. He's a cutey also. There was a really funny band on but I totally forgot their name but if they play again I will be happy. They had a song about anal glands that almost brought tears to my eyes from laughter. Then the Absolute came on, normally i really love them but last night they just wouldn't leave. They did 11 songs!! URGH!!! and it was so loud it felt like my ear drums were going to pop, that drives me nuts. Sadly Jackson did not ma...